Don't be afraid
Finding yourself is no easy task. Every decision I make comes with a nagging question, is that what the old me would have done, is this to make someone else happy, or is this what I want to do? Looking at what I just wrote makes it look so simple, it isn’t, the only easy decisions are the ones that don’t cause me anxiety, and even then sometimes you got to go with your intuition and not your anxiety. When these sorts of decisions must be made and you know what you have to do, but your anxiety is there, you will make the decision once you are strong enough. It might not be right away, and that’s ok, but when you are ready, and the time is right you will know.
I must look at who I am and who I want to be, not at who I have been and what is most comfortable. Sometimes you must take a chance and hope that it pays off. Sort of like this blog, I was scared to let people know about it but once I did, I felt free. This blog allowed me to show people that things aren’t always as they seem, outward I wore a mask and only let myself be me at home. I felt like if people had noticed a change in me the last few months it would all be explained through my writing.
With this chance, I have learned that I love writing. I have always loved reading so this new discovery was exciting for me, maybe one day I will write a book and get published. Who knows, but the point is if I wouldn’t have taken the chance I wouldn’t have learned of this new love and I wouldn’t have even thought about writing a book. Not saying I’m writing a book, just saying that it is an idea that I’ve had since I started this blog.
Don’t be afraid to try new things, don’t be afraid to take chances, don’t be afraid to let people see the real you. Not being afraid shows that you are being you because who would be so open about themselves in a vulnerable way if it wasn’t true. Like I already wrote, several times, I was scared to be real, but I am strong, and I knew other people might need to hear that they are not alone.
Talk about it, it is not something to push aside because you are important, your mental health is important, and you deserve to be happy. Most importantly, you will learn that you are not alone and that you can be real.
You never know what you will learn about yourself by taking a chance, remember don’t be afraid. Life’s an adventure and I want to experience it to the fullest.
Don’t be afraid,
Chantal M.
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